Experience:DMT: 200mg 1/5 changa - Bad yet glorious trip
- Date: 14.10.2016 1:45 AM
- Gender: Male
- Weight: 86kg / 189lbs
- Age: 29
- Set: Kitchen without music brightly lit
- Setting: Neutral mindset, in ave of beauty the last trip from 1 hour ago, lets see what happens
Last night had the most terrifying experience i had in my whole life.
Took a breakthrough dose of Changa and decided to experience it without lying down and. Was just standing there in my kitchen with open eyes. At first the real world started to wrap around me with almost mechanical visuals. Time started to stand still, getting faster and slower at the same time. at this time i thought i overdosed.
I sat down at the table and felt all my racing thoughts become one elastic membrane covering the inside of my head. None of the thoughts were readable or making any sense they were just there melted together for eternity. The only familiar feeling i had was paralyzing fear and i couldn't get rid of. the moment i tried to figure out where the fear comes from the trip only intensified while digging deeper and deeper towards the source of the fear.
At that point i closed my eyes. and a entity showed up. he was definitely male. he was gorgeous in his unhuman beauty and we started to arm wrestle. come on fucker i thought while he was showing himself to me and the complexity he was representing generating those fearsome emotions.
We basically stared at each other. He was showing himself as the ultimate enemy i had to beat and defeat and me experiencing the terror he was inducing to me. Then i opened my eyes. Just to check whats going on outside and after i closed them again he never came back but those feelings of fear and terror never left. that's when i thought: "is this going to last forever? which drove me even more into panic.
The kitchen was drifting at a never before experienced intensity and the clock was standing still. I closed my eyes again and he wasn't there anymore. Instead i started to be overwhelmed by unstructured biological goo like visuals. Some sort of organic dark landscape wrapping around myself. It looked like my consciousness was made of millions plastic bags and set on fire and started melting like a plastic bag does.
The terror in my head only intensified again since i started to feel those melting plastic constructs as physical pain or sensation in the back of my head and behind my eyes. At this point i lost it. I wanted to scream and thoughts connected to my family and closest friends sleeping in their rooms a few meters away. Are they aware of my suffering in the kitchen? "Should i wake my friend up and seek comfort and relief from this torment i put myself upon me?"
The only thought was keeping me alive was that its a substance and the effects are getting weaker and will come to an end at some point. Finally the intensity of the experience started to fade somewhat resulting in an afterglow that lasted a long time. The afterglow felt somewhat like the sum of all my fears were extracted from me and and were floating aside of me. Interfering with it made those fears creep upon me again so i let left it alone. Since that moment the accumulated demons simply faded away slowly leaving a feeling of being proud for withstanding this madness. After that i went to bed and hugged my gf and tried to go to sleep. but it was not possible. I still had the images in my head and the terror i experienced. all this happened at 1:45AM and lasted till 2:50, finally falling asleep around 5:00AM am woke up literally few minutes ago and had to write this down.
When i looked at the mirror this morning a wide grin appeared.
Submitted by - Antiharmonix
- Time distortion - "Time started to stand still, getting faster and slower at the same time."
- Anxiety - "The only familiar feeling i had was paralyzing fear and i couldn't get rid of."
- Autonomous entities - "and a entity showed up. he was definitely male."
- Delusion - "is this going to last forever?"
- Synaesthesia - "i started to feel those melting plastic constructs as physical pain or sensation in the back of my head and behind my eyes."