Experience:300µg AL-LAD - Don't worry, because you're everyone!

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Trip Reports - AL-LAD

  • Date: December 31st 2014/January 1st 2015
  • Time of Dosage: Approx. 10 - 10:30 PM
  • Weight: Approx. 63 kg / Approx. 140lbs
  • Dose: 2 Tabs [150µg each] of AL-LAD
  • Mind-frame/Set: Curious, Excited, Tired [Over a day and a half without sleep]
  • Environment/Setting: At a friend's very old & supposedly haunted house in the middle of town, Night, Alone with one of my closest friends, No TV, Hardly any music throughout the trip.
  • Goal: To try it out before taking a 600µg dose later on in the month, Possibly acquire a spiritual insight.
  • Experience: None, besides smoking Cannabis on & off for 3 years if that counts.

Content

Initial Dosage:

I stick the tabs on my gum like my fellow psychonaut instructs me to. I leave the tabs there for about half an hour before I chew & swallow them.

Approx. An hr after initial dosage:

I'm feeling slightly different, then my friend says something & I automatically start bursting out in uncontrollable laughter. They inform me that this is normal as I continue in my hysteria. I also felt my throat become fairly flemmy around this sort of time, my friend says they also find they get like this on AL-LAD.

Approx. Half an hour later:

I'm feeling an intense body high. Feeling as if I'm having an orgasm, but all over my body, along with feeling this sort of buzzing energy, hard to describe. I see my first visual as I'm showing my friend the contents of “The Psychedelic Explorer's Guide” by James Fadiman, it's in between the lines & kind of looks like a triangle but curvy, There's probably a name for it but it escapes me at this time, I shall update if I figure it out.

Approx. Half an hour later:

I'm lying on the bed, along with my friend & we can see the ceiling in motion, which gives me great pleasure to look at. I have this state of mind where I look at our species as strange, we try to define things, “this means this & that means that” I keep repeating to myself, & I keep saying “none of it matters!” I want to go out and share how I'm feeling with everyone & tell them of this new insight, but I'm afraid I will get shot by the police for being mistaken as a lunatic. I'm thinking that the Illuminati as the cause of all this, they're the ones that behind all the defining, controlling the media & so forth telling us what to think & what things mean, but in truth meaning to things always changes. I keep saying the same sentence over & over again, along with my friend who I believe is doing the same thing. I'm still very giggly at this point, I start taking off some of the layers I have on (which I have several of), saying something along the lines of “I'm removing this because it's not me, it's not who I am.” my friend asks me not to start taking my clothes off so I stop at the point where I'm left with only a t-shirt on & tracksuit bottoms. My friend instructs me to try & meditate, but I'm too giggly & easily distracted. I lie down next to the boiler in their room, laughing & smiling for a while.

Around 12:50 AM:

Note:From here on out I completely lose track of time.

I've been so engrossed in my experience that I forgot to count down for the new year with my friend. By now , geometric patterns have completely enveloped my vision, I see them on the walls, I see them on my friend, they're everywhere! We continue to converse for a while, then at some point, it gets really weird.

Now, the experience is jumbled. I'm not sure what order these experiences happen, but I will give it my best shot to remember the correct order.

I believe I'm seeing the person who I have feelings for, & they find out how I'm feeling & instead of rejecting me as I fear is going to be the case, they say "I love you too!" & we start kissing and then our bodies start melting into each other. The pleasure & happiness I'm feeling is amazing! It's so beautiful! I feel so happy that I don't have to worry any more! By now I'm completely out of it &, according to my friend, completely unresponsive. So me and this person continue with our melt-sex for a while & then they don't want to because I'm not (a certain person), & now I go into this odd loop where I become different people who I know or (admire for e.g. Terrence Mckenna), & I feel like these people are also spectating me becoming them, speaking to, & talking about me, & each time it speeds up dramatically & is also slightly different. From going back to being me melting with that person, to being them melting into me, to eventually being someone I know who has alzheimers, I resist it at first, I don't like it one bit, I feel as if I'm shutting down & I can see rats, spiders, snakes & some other creepy creatures with evil red eyes from the other side of the room that are coming towards me. At first, I think I've turned into Sonic, & that I can jump out the window, run around the world a light speed & come back & then I'll be able to move on to a better experience, (which thinking about it sounds illogical because even if I could do that, in theory they wouldn't have gone anywhere as I would have been back in an instant giving them no time to even go anywhere), my friend fortunately stops me from doing this as I would have fallen & injured myself badly. At this point I see my friend, who instructs me to lie down, which helps me a lot. I now feel like I'm meant to leave this person I'd fallen in love with, so I could go deeper into my mind & face my fears along with the help of Terrence McKenna. I feel a giant dog sized spider crawl on top of my head, but instead of freaking out, I find it cuddly & warm. I feel as if I've been taken to the Amazon & I'm with these creatures again, but instead of them being scary, they're just minding their own business & I'm minding mine. Then I'm taken to this space where the loop continues, I start living lives of other people, at least my perception of them & being them or melting with them, I change & be someone else & live out their life & so on, then I experience melting into people as someone else with someone else. I felt like I was a piece of a puzzle & that these other people I'm seeing are the other pieces of the puzzle & feel I must merge with these people to become whole again. I In the end these people tell me something like, "You don't need to worry about us doing things you don't want us to, because we are you", & I have this feeling of complete connection with everyone, I feel as if I am everyone.

It goes something along these lines. Although this has been updated there are most likely things I'm still missing out & some things I'm missing out simply because I can't describe to you how it felt at the time.

Around half 5 AM:

I awaken and find myself lying next to my friend who is on their phone. I see no visuals, other than an enhanced perception of the phone, it looks almost 3D, & more colorful, it's pretty awesome. My friend informs me that I had grabbed their light and snapped it, that they had to stop me from from burning myself on their candle & that I started saying a load of random stuff. I have no recollection of this, but I remember seeing a candle at some point during the trip. I apologise to them & we go to sleep.

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Effects analysis

  • Laughter - "I automatically start bursting out in uncontrollable laughter."
  • Spontaneous tactile sensations - "I'm feeling an intense body high."
  • Physical euphoria - "Feeling as if I'm having an orgasm, but all over my body, along with feeling this sort of buzzing energy, hard to describe."
  • Drifting - "we can see the ceiling in motion"
  • Thought loops - " “this means this & that means that” I keep repeating to myself, & I keep saying “none of it matters!”. I keep saying the same sentence over & over again, along with my friend who I believe is doing the same thing. "
  • Geometry - "geometric patterns have completely enveloped my vision, I see them on the walls, I see them on my friend, they're everywhere!"
  • Internal hallucinations with Autonomous entities and Scenarios and plots - "I think I'm seeing the person who I have feelings for, & they find out how I'm feeling & instead of rejecting me as I fear is going to be the case, they say "I love you too!" & we start kissing and then our bodies start melting into each other."
  • Emotion enhancement - "The pleasure & happiness I'm feeling is amazing!"
  • Internal hallucinations with Autonomous entities, Scenarios and plots, Perspective alterations, and Delusions - "So me and this person continue with our melt-sex for a while & then they don't want to because I'm not (a certain person), & now I go into this odd loop where I become different people who I know or & I feel like these people are also spectating me becoming them, speaking to, & talking about me"
  • External hallucinations - "I can see rats, spiders, snakes & some other creepy creatures with evil red eyes from the other side of the room that are coming towards me."
  • Delusions - "At first, I think I've turned into Sonic, & that I can jump out the window, run around the world a light speed & come back & then I'll be able to move on to a better experience"
  • Tactile hallucinations - "I feel a giant dog sized spider crawl on top of my head, but instead of freaking out, I find it cuddly & warm."
  • Internal hallucinations with Settings, sceneries, and landscapes and Autonomous entities - "I feel as if I've been taken to the Amazon & I'm with these creatures again, but instead of them being scary, they're just minding their own business & I'm minding mine."
  • Internal hallucinations with Autonomous entities and Perspective alterations (2nd person) - "I change a be someone else & live out their life & so on, then I experience melting into people as someone else with someone else.”
  • Unity and interconnectedness - "I have this feeling of complete connection with everyone, I feel as if I am everyone."
  • Depth perception distortions - "I see no visuals, other than an enhanced perception of the phone, it looks 3D"
  • Time distortion - "Note:From here on out I completely lose track of time."
  • Memory suppression – (I forgot a lot of it as I was/after coming down.)
  • Colour enhancement - “I see no visuals, other than an enhanced perception of the phone, it looks almost 3D, & more colorful, it's pretty awesome.”