Experience:120mg - Unexpected 'trip', insane CEVs

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Trip Reports - Mirtazapine

  • Date: February 02, 2014
  • Gender: Male
  • Weight: 70kg / 154lbs
  • Height: 5’9
  • Age: 26

I didn't know Mirtazapine was a deliriant at the time, and as a sufferer of anxiety and depression, I guess I was just hoping for a more pronounced anxiolytic effect the next morning. I looked up the highest does of Mirtazapine given clinically, made sure it was well below the LD50 and all that and downed 120mg.

Within 2 minutes of ingestion, I was almost knocked out in my chair after taking them. This stuff hits incredibly fast without any tolerance.

I hobbled to bed, and barely made it without falling over, then I was lying there feeling drunk and dizzy, I got that feeling where you feel like you are floating/spinning around when lying in your bed, but aren't moving, it was fun so I tried to stay awake lying there, but after a minute or so my eyes got too heavy and I closed them.

Around then I started hearing people talking, it sounded as if people were in my bedroom. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but it was 'clear', yet I couldn't make out any words. The noise of these people talking would 'move' around my room, and sound as if it were coming from different locations in my room, all this happening very quickly for about 1 minute.

In front of my behind-eye vision, it was as if I was looking at something directly in front of me, as if my eyes were open - it was the most surreal thing ever, it was like when I closed my eyes, they became a portal to another reality where I was seeing things through my eyes, and everything in front of me seemed real, but when I opened them it snapped me back to my bed.

Then, I heard a loud high-pitched noise, like a flashbang grenade in an FPS, and at the same time, a bright white light appeared in the center of my closed eye vision, as the sound got louder the light got brighter until the sound went away and the light disappeared.

After that, there were images behind my eyelids, detailed, completely random images of various things, I actually can't remember a single one specifically anymore, but for example sake: An image of a kettle, then a farm, then a couple of people talking, then some books, etc etc, just totally random, un-connected things. And these images were appearing incredibly fast - I could 'see' the image, and before I could even process what it was in my mind, and begin to think about it, at least 10 more images had passed by my eyes, and yet I could still somehow see each image and recognize what it was, it was so surreal.

After a couple of minutes of this, the images stopped and I fell asleep.

As soon as I woke up, I remembered everything, except for the images I saw, I just know that I saw them, and how I was thinking at the time how crazy it was that I was seeing hundreds if not thousands of completely random, disjointed images at such a fast pace.

Submitted by - Paradox

Effects analysis

  • Auditory hallucinations "Around then I started hearing people talking, it sounded as if people were in my bedroom. I couldn't hear what they were saying, but it was 'clear', yet I couldn't make out any words." "Then, I heard a loud high-pitched noise, like a flashbang grenade in an FPS"
  • Dizziness "then I was lying there feeling drunk and dizzy, I got that feeling where you feel like you are floating/spinning around when lying in your bed, but aren't moving"
  • Internal hallucinations "it was like when I closed my eyes, they became a portal to another reality where I was seeing things through my eyes, and everything in front of me seemed real, but when I opened them it snapped me back to my bed." " there were images behind my eyelids, detailed, completely random images of various things, I actually can't remember a single one specifically anymore, but for example sake: An image of a kettle, then a farm, then a couple of people talking, then some books, etc etc, just totally random, un-connected things."