Experience: Synthetic 5-MeO-DMT (~15-20mg, vaporized) + LSD (~990 ug's/10 tabs, oral) - Life is really weird, dude.

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  • Substance(s): Synthetic 5-MeO-DMT and LSD.
  • Dose: ~15-20mg of 5-MeO-DMT and 10 tabs of LSD, so around 990 ug's.
  • Route of Administration: The 5-MeO-DMT was vaporized and held in for fifteen seconds+ each hit and the acid was just swallowed on an empty stomach.

Subject

  • Age: 19.
  • Sex: Male.
  • Height: 170.18 cm / 67 inches (5'7").
  • Weight: ~63 kg / ~140 lbs.
  • Date: 09/23/2022 - September 23rd, 2022.
  • Location: United States of America, done in Texas. Native to New Jersey however.

Background

As a first, I'm a relatively experienced psychedelic user. I've done around 200 or so hits of acid since 17, ate a decent amount of shrooms and have burned through at least 500mg of N'N-DMT every week for the past eight months. However, on September 14th, I had my first experience with 5-MeO-DMT. It was frankly, underwhelming compared to N'N-DMT. It was a far more intense experience, but it also didn't feel like insane chaos. It felt almost like a regimented chaos, like it was life.

Truth be told, my set and setting were terrible. My room was a mess, I'd been skipping classes (Sophomore college student currently majoring in physics), and had recently broke up with my girlfriend, who is now my ex. We had a big fight, I take some acid in an attempt to completely forget about her, all I do end is end up seriously reflecting on things. She calls me mid-peak, we talk things out, I ask for some more time to think and I hit this 5-Meo-DMT cart while over the phone. The trip went surprisingly well, which you can read about below.

Experience report

I remember as I inhaled the first hit, the entire world went white. The first hit in, it just felt like I was rapidly accelerating towards the end. Towards my death. Towards a cessation of my ability to experience life, and that I was soon going to join the void.

I go for a second hit, and things get a little fuck-y. These dialogue snippets akin to stuff like "The greatest joy of life is to love, and the greatest tragedy of life is to know of love but be denied of it" and flashes of all the things I wanted to do in life just shot into my memory. I didn't hallucinate them or anything, it just was.

Then I went for the third hit, and all of a sudden, it was like a TV turned off. The blinding white that took up all of my vision suddenly vanished. It was all black. It really felt as if the TV turned off, and that TV was my life. Any sense of self was gone, the fact that I had ingested a substance was gone and I thought I killed myself. Just this repeated "FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU FOR LEAVING ME HERE! FUCK YOU, YOU SELFISH PRICK!" repeated in my head, of my now ex presumably mourning over my death. The realization that because I had killed myself or was killing myself and was dying, I would never be able to do the thousands of things I wanted to do. The millions of experiences I want to try. The potential that I had as an individual, would never be realized. All of these flashbacks and memories of me being happy and passionately talking about something I found interesting hit me at once. Then all of these flashbacks of every struggle I had, every hardship I faced, every moment I tried my goddamn hardest to succeed were shot into me. My life flashed before my eyes, every single significant moment felt as if it was just in my head.

A dialogue snippet regarding how life and experiencing it was fantastic, and the greatest tragedy was death echoed through my mind. It was over. I regretted my suicide, I continually said that I was sorry in my head. Sorry that I left my now ex alone, sorry that I wasted my potential, sorry that I wouldn't be able to experience and sorry that I would never be able to be considered one of the greatest minds of this era(listen bro, I get that it sounds kind of arrogant, but I like to think of myself as smart enough to have the potential to reach that point if I tried hard enough). But I allowed myself to accept it, as I refused to regret the death that I chose.

Then the 5-MeO completely wore off in what was reported to be around ten minutes, the void dissipated, allowing for the white-out to re-appear before that too vanished after opening my eyes. Then I looked at my computer screen, then the 5-MeO-DMT cart. The sheer insanity, comedy and just mindblowing profoundness of the experience hit me all at once as my sense of self suddenly just popped back into being. It felt like I had been reborn.

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