Experience:0.5mg Alprazolam + alcohol - Turning off

Subject

• Height: 174cm / 5'9
• Weight:62kg
• Date: 07/23

Background

Susceptible to dissociatives (tried cannabis in very small doses and tripped), medically suspected dissociative disorder but not diagnosed.

alprazolam use for anxiety (xanax - 0.125 - 0.25 mg dosages) in the past but haven't touched it recently. Didn't drink alcohol during the last six months but I have a baseline high tolerance.

I was having a pretty rough time and needed to take a break and doze off.

Experience report

Timeline

T+00 (10PM) I start by taking my drink. I know I'm not going to feel much due to my high tolerance and just hoping it doesn't make me feel sick instead of a bit relaxed.

T+00:30 I think it did its thing, I felt somewhat more chill and a little bit dizzy. Just what I remember a drink doing to me. I am slowly relaxing watching some videos online.

T+ 01:00 The effects are wearing off and I feel anxiety growing, just like usual. I didn't want to deal with it and I wanted to numb myself, so I added my usual alprazolam dosage (10 drops, 0.25 mg subl then oral).

T+01:15 I start to feel more relaxed, nothing out of the norm but I feel calm. Still chilling at my computer, don't remember exactly what I was doing.

T+01:40 It's not doing much really so I decide to redose and take 0.25 more, same method. It was the first time I did 0.5 mg so I didn't know what to expect but I figured out I would be more relaxed.

T+02:00 At this point I effectively feel relaxed and chill. Nice. I am not watching videos anymore and just enjoying the night breeze.

T+02:10 Suddenly it's like every sound or noise around me gets turned off, it's a clear silence to me even though nothing has changed rationally. I felt sinking more into the couch, feeling my breath slowing down. I remember my eyes were wide open, nothing going through my mind. I could talk and move if I had to but I really didn't want to. It was not a scary sensation but pleasant instead. I think it lasted around 15 minutes in total.

T+02:30 I don't really remember anything clearly after but I went to bed shortly after that "trip" happened. Fell asleep immediately (unusual).

I woke up at 9:30, for the first time in weeks awoken by my alarm. My sleep was actually good quality for the period but I cannot compare it to the usual use (sleep quality a bit worse than normal). Don't remember dreaming, like every other time I took alpraz.

Submitted by Anonymous