User:0xea

Xea

Hyia!, Im Xea, auti transgirl, born early 2000s.

Feel free to chat me up <3, just don't be a meanie.

matrix: @im-0xea:socki.moe
email: 0xea@autistici.org

Xea's Special Interests

• chemistry and pharmacology
• low level programming and reverse engineering

Xea's Mental Issues

• (hypo-)manic episodes
  • SPENDING TOO MUCH TIME EDITING THIS WIKI
• autism
  • severe sensory issues
  • attention deficit disorder
• long term dissociation

Xea's Experiences

• Experience:70mg Lisdexamfetamine (oral) - My first stimulant experience
• Experience:1800mg Caffeine - Bipolar disorder and a bottle of pills
• Experience:35mg Dextromethamphetamine + 305mg 3-Methylmethcathinone + 20mg 2C-B - destroying myself before rebuilding

Xea's Substance Matrix

Xea's Substance Ranklist

adoration ❤ hatred

Hormone Medication

Compound	Structure	Notes
Estradiol Undecylate ❤		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; produces stable levels with no crashes when injected monthly
Estradiol Enantate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; minor crashes when injected weekly; discomfort when injected every 4 days
Estradiol Cypionate		prodrug ester of life saving hormone; crashes when injected weekly
Dutasteride ❤		significantly reduced hairloss; no side effects; very long halflife
Cyproterone acetate		helpful when estradiol levels drop below monotherapy levels; no side effects noticed so far
Beclometasone dipropionate		might slightly have helped respiratory issues
Melatonin		barely effective sleeping aid; potencially improves quality of sleep
Finasteride		coincided significant suicidal thoughts; very short halflife; stopped treatment after a month

Entactogens

Compound	Structure	Notes
3,4-Methylenedioxymethamphetamine ❤		my favorite psychoactive substance by far; helped fix several friendships; allowed me to reprocess some traumatic events; will turn anybody into a cuddle-machine
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic
3-Methylmethcathinone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; corrosive
4-Methylmethcathinone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements

Stimulants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Lisdexamphetamine ❤		favorite psychoactive substance for productivity; prodrug of my favorite stimulant
Dextroamphetamine		quite stimulating; clean euphoria; minimal side effects
3-Methylmethcathinone		lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; clean but short-acting euphoria; intensely addictive(made me feel as if this feeling would be the purpose of the rest of my life); high dosing requirements; corrosive
Dextromethamphetamine		quite stimulating; intense but short euphoria; long halflife; strong xerostomia(dry mouth)
Amphetamine		somewhat stimulating; clean euphoria; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very euphoric and practical via intravenous injection
Cocaine		quite stimulating; quite euphoric; heavy cardiovascular side effects; very short duration; surprisingly entactogenic
Mitragynine		quite relaxing yet helpful for working; reduces minor pain; very helpful when crashing from dopaminergic stimulants
Caffeine		light plesant stimulation; discomfort at higher doses; toxicity has nearly taken my life
Salbutamol		respiratory enhancement; minimal to no stimulation; cardiovascular side effects
Modafinil		effective dosing not reached
Pseudoephedrine		effective dosing not reached
Methylphenidate		mininmal to no euphoria and stimulation; causes anxiety
4-Methylmethcathinone		cat-piss odor; lighly entactogenic; quite stimulating; medium dosing requirements
Bupropion		paradoxical pharmacology; caused intense distress
Nicotine		light stimulation; causes agitation and headaches

Psychedelics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Dimethyltryptamine ❤		~15mg vaporized produced very light effects but made me leave with newfound meaning and motivation; ~20mg vaporized produced feelings of shooting through space while completely clear in my head, very clean beautiful visuals for 3 minutes; ~25mg vaporized produced feelings of being torn out of my body and lost in space for 3 minutes; ~30mg vaporized made my subconcious start talking "please help me, I want to leave this place(refering to my place in life)"
2C-B		caused a significant and a horrifying experience; reduces passing of time; overlaying yet intense visuals; interesting tactile sensations; "psychedelic phenethylamine go weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ^w^"; "if this is a mind manifesting drug, than my mind is both love and a nighmare swarm of angry spinning rainbows"

Opioids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Mitragynine		quite relaxing yet helpful for working; reduces minor pain; very helpful when crashing from dopaminergic stimulants; encourages sexuality
Diacetylmorphine		relaxing to the point of inducing sleep; warm; minor pain reduction; helps deal with siginificant emotional pain; weird dream like states which feel fully concious; encourages sexuality
Oxycodone		strong apathy and sadness; feelings of body melting; when injected minor euphoria followed by nausea and intense sweating and warmth with only minor pain suppression

Sedatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Lorazepam		relaxing; not very sedating
Alprazolam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed; quite potent
Diazepam		helps in distress; effective sleeping aid; cancels out stimulants if needed
Pregabalin		reduces some baseline anxiety; doesn't prevent breakthrough sensory overload

Antipsychotics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing to use; didn't seam to help that much directly but potencially over the hours after use; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy
Amisulpride		messed me up at low dosage; kept me safe at a full dosage; quite pleasant probably due to opioid / GHB effects; will make you lactate but that sounds hot to me
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy

Antihistamine

Compound	Structure	Notes
Bilastine		seamed too improve allergy symptoms
Diphenhydramine		at 50mg pleasantly relaxing, reduced cognitive ability and agitation; seams too improve allergy symptoms
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight
Promethazine		seamed too suggestive to treat acute distress; strongly delayed onset; potencially mild nausea reduction; unsure about effects on allergy
Quetiapine		somewhat distressing to use; didn't seam to help that much directly but potencially over the hours after use; quite tranquilizing; unsure about effects on allergy

Dissociatives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Ketamine		unnerving if injected rapidly; body distortion; perception in snap frames; amnesia; time distortion; followed by suicidal thoughts; can be interesting if going into it with positive emotions
Dextromethorphan		effective dosing not reached; might have worsened previous psychosis

Antidepressants

Compound	Structure	Notes
Mirtazapine		creates unique bodily feeling; seams to suppress histamine effects; tranquailized me for 2 days straight

Nootropics

Compound	Structure	Notes
Omberacetam		seams mildly stimulating

Amino acids

Compound	Structure	Notes
5-Hydroxytryptophan		seams to improve wellbeing after MDMA use
L-Theanine		light but pleasant effects
N-Acetylcysteine		the taste of rotten eggs ruined my dextromethamphetamine tea
Pyridoxine		uncertain activity
N-Acetyl-L-Tyrosine		uncertain activity; injected 500mg intravenous

Antihypertensives

Compound	Structure	Notes
Minoxidil		promotes hair regrowth; causes respiratory depression at 10-15mg oral administration

NSAIDs

Compound	Structure	Notes
Acetylsalicylic acid		reliefs minor headaches; causes useful blood thinning for stroke prevention
Ibuprofen		ineffective
Paracetamol		ineffective

Cannabinoids

Compound	Structure	Notes
Tetrahydrocannabinol		reduces cognitive functioning; slowed perception of time
Cannabidiol		nothing to note

Alcohols

Compound	Structure	Notes
Ethanol		reduces cognitive functioning; euphoric at nauseating doses; rather use this as a solvent
Isopropanol		accidental exposure; pretty euphoric and encouraging grandious thinking; causes headaches; ~24 hour duration; rather use this as a solvent
Phenol		potencial accidental exposure(blood in my urin); synthesized from salicylic acid for my suicide kit; likely very unpleasant(muscle spasms and cardiac arrest)