Experience:4.5g - The Grand Introduction to Beauty and Fear

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Trip Reports - Mushrooms

  • Date: Not given
  • Gender: Male
  • Weight: At the time I was roughly 43kg / 95lbs
  • Age: I was 14 turning 15 within a couple of months
  • Etc: My first time with psychedelics.

Content

I was in my bedroom lying down staring at the ceiling while munching on them. My mother was home cooking Ravioli for me, I was reading trip reports to see what I had incoming. I opened the bag and chewed the shrooms as much as I could, I was under the impression i was eating 6 grams but thank god my supplier had subtly ripped me off.

First thing I remember happening was my awareness of colors increased tenfold, like weed would do to me but incredibly more intense, I also noticed it was like my vision had been cleared, like glasses but more, it was like I had sudden "super vision". I also began feeling this amazing sensation around my body like my skin was coated in this tangy feeling. I looked at my hands and the most amazing moment I describe occurred as I saw my first hallucination, tracers on my hands, my face broke into a massive gaping smile as I moved my hand back and forth in such surprise and amazement at this visual entertainment, it was like my hand was being mass replicated and was following the others in the tightest line imaginable, a full trail of 'hand', similar to raising the trail setting on a cursor on a computer. Then, the ceiling started to move, shifting around and breathing in a sort of way as patterns developed between the stalactite type formations on my ceiling ("popcorn style" ceiling), they began to mesh together and during all of this I was laughing like crazy, trying to keep silent as I could to not arouse suspicion. The ceiling was now in full motion and I could see full images and moving "things" within this "picture". It was like a movie on my ceiling, a full fledged motion picture. I was so perplexed by this image that I somehow didn't notice taking my shirt off during it, but I then realized the intense body effects I was feeling, my chest was prickling in pleasure, and I began rubbing my stomach and feeling these tickles of 'awe' throughout my body. I looked out my window (I lived next to a mall at the time) and saw what seems like hundreds of cars outside, which appeared as little multicolored beetle-like insects with this old style 3D-like effect on all of them, the red and blue/green light-slices coming out from either end of all of them, their glowing eyes fixed on this magic trail.

Then I saw the trees and the forest next to the mall, and while all this I was listening to Bob Marley's Legend, Jamming was on, and in that moment I looked at the green trees, and to me they became the true idea and concept of "Jamaica", this incredible feeling that the spirit of the song and the culture was IN those trees, and more so that those trees just WERE Jamaica. I came to for a moment, and thought about the song, and thought "Yeah, I really am Jammin', WE'RE JAMMIN'", and had this amazing moment where I thought about that meaning, the meaning of that term, and was in such a state of peace, and joy. I was just, happy.

Then things took a turn for the worse as the song "Misty Canyon" came on, its beginning notes putting me off into a strange mood as I frantically tried to change the song, I put it back to jamming but my mood was already changed. I wanted to leave so I decided it would be a good idea to check if my eyes were too big to leave my room. I looked at my reflection and tried to see my eyes but I could not make out my Pupils, then I realized I had two then three, they were bubbling in my eyes and I saw my facial features begin switching with each other and I took one last look at my disfigured face and freaked out. I was terrified for a moment but tried to calm down, I looked at my surroundings and saw my messy clothes on the top rack of my shelf melting into each other like slime, and instantly ripped my vision away from it, trying not to panic. I tied getting back into the peaceful state I was in by looking at the ceiling again, but the picture was gone and all I could see was millions of cryptic numbers falling, like the matrix but different, some kind of coding for reality. During all this the previous physical feelings of pleasure and happiness were replaced by a dark and imposing feeling of strangeness and odd impending doom of some ilk. My body just felt incredibly weird.

I had to leave my room so I just did, uncaring of the consequences. I lied down on the couch and felt it trying to suck me in and consume me whole, I tried to ignore the feeling but I felt some kind of nibbling on my toes, but there was nothing I could do, I had to push the feeling away. Then, my mother brought me the Ravioli she had been making me, she asked why i had taken so long and I did a half shrug, tolerantly I had been in there for over two and a half hours and yet, it felt only like a half an hour or less.

I tried eating but the ravioli bits felt like my toes in my mouth, like the nibbling was coming from me and I was eating my own toes. I tried forcing down the first one and succeeded but could not consume any more. I needed some form of distraction lest I freak in my living room, so I turned on the movie "The Incredibles".

I ended up watching it three times without realizing, the strange animation style played with my head even as the shrooms had worn off, the elastic behavior of the arms and the speed of it all was almost too much and the music, had such a profound effect on my mind, every tune changed my literal emotional wellness. Eventually I turned it up and tried going to bed by I was having audial hallucinations still and could not sleep, ever time I lulled a little I would hear this loud speeding 'RIIIIIIIIIIIIING' in both my ears.

Submitted by - Gopib

Effects analysis

  • Drifting - (they began to mesh together and during all of this/shifting around and breathing in a sort of way)
  • Conceptual thinking - (I looked at the green trees, and to me they became the true idea and concept of "Jamaica", this incredible feeling that the spirit of the song and the culture was IN those trees, and more so that those trees just WERE Jamaica)
  • Spontaneous physical sensations - (but I then realized the intense body effects I was feeling, my chest was prickling in pleasure, and I began rubbing my stomach and feeling these tickles of 'awe' throughout my body)
  • Pupil dilation - (No way of knowing but from other experiences I assume that my pupils were the size of baseballs)
  • Headaches - (I had major headaches for about a week after I tripped)
  • Laughter - (during all of this I was laughing like crazy)
  • External hallucinations - (The ceiling was now in full motion and I could see full images and moving "things" within this "picture". It was like a movie on my ceiling, a full fledged motion picture./hundreds of cars outside, which appeared as little multicolored beetle-like insects with this old style 3D-like effect on all of them, the red and blue/green light-slices coming out from either end of all of them, their glowing eyes fixed on this magic trail./ The ceiling was now in full motion and I could see full images and moving "things" within this "picture"/looking at the ceiling again, but the picture was gone and all I could see was millions of cryptic numbers falling, like the matrix but different, some kind of coding for reality)
  • Tracers - (my first hallucination, tracers on my hands/I moved my hand back and forth in such surprise and amazement/it was like my hand was being mass replicated and was following the others in the tightest line imaginable, a full trail of 'hand')
  • Auditory hallucinations - (ever time I lulled a little I would hear this loud speeding 'RIIIIIIIIIIIIING' in both my ears.)